The mirror is a lie?

"You are beautiful"

Then why do I feel ugly?

"You look so good today"

So was I ugly all this time?

"I am jealous of your looks"

You are lying, aren't you?

Throughout my life I have always struggled with accepting compliments.

How could I accept them?

How could I believe I am pretty when all I feel when I see myself is pure disgust?

How could I believe I am worthy when all my life I have been told the opposite?

I used to look very different to how I look like now and hence get treated differently as well-

From being the girl who would always get picked on for her looks

To a girl who keeps receiving compliments over her looks

I have lost a lot of weight

I have started applying makeup

I have started putting effort in my outfits

Yet I feel the same way about myself

No, That is a lie.

I actually feel much more worse.

Will my self hatred ever go away?

Probably

Probably not

Why do I feel so much love towards everyone but myself?

Maybe it is because I know myself and my flaws far more than I know anyone else's.

The mirror is a lie

The face I put on is a lie

Everything about me is a lie