I was around 13 years old when I first realised.
It was terrifying to be honest.
The thought of anyone finding out my "big secret" was overwhelming.
The stress surrounding it was so great that I could not function without thinking about it.
The restriction within me due to society makes me too scared to even type out the 3 letter word which I identify as
A part of me wants to be out and open
After all I should take 'pride' in who I am right?
But a bigger part of me is realistic,
People like me have no choice but to be realistic,
The news articles, the comments made by people around me
Makes me wonder- To be or not to be
All of those reasons are why I cannot be proud of who I am
Maybe one day I might be proud of myself.
Maybe one day I might proudly say the 3 letter word.
Maybe one day I might find the courage to tell the world.
But for now, I prefer to keep it to myself
The consequences of being true to myself are far too great
For now I choose to be, but in secret
I hope that in the future I can tell the world
I hope that in the future I can tell my freinds
I hope that in the future I can tell my family
But for now, I shall keep it to myself
But just because I have to hide it doesnt mean I have to stop it
I will stand up for those who are braver than me
I will make sure they know that they are not alone
After all no one should not be what they want to be
When I come out
There will be anger
There will be disgust
They will be upset
But i shall never not be
I shall never try to change myself
Because there is nothing wrong with being pink even if the whole world is blue
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